Tuesday, January 16, 2007


I apologize for all of you that got late night phone calls from me last night. I had a headache and couldn't sleep. Then I started crying.

Tears are my Achilles heal. Some people cry and feel better. I cry and feel like I'm staring down rabbit hole. I'm so scared that I'm going to fall into the hole and never find my way back out. I apologize constantly if I'm on the phone with someone while I'm crying, even though I know that the only thing more annoying is someone who apologizes while drunk. Don't even get me started on drunk crying. I've done that recently and it's the worst because I can't stop it. The tears just keep coming then, in embarassingly strong heaves and whimpers.

Do me a favor: if you know me on here, or even if you only know me from here, e-mail me. and let me know who the insomniacs or the, "I don't mind being woken up at 1am" folks are.

It's not easy for me to ask for support.



Caroline said...

Hang in there. I will add you to my yahoo messenger and if I am up late at night I will make sure I am online if you need someone to vent to.

Pregnant In Texas said...

Caroline, I don't have yahoo messenger tied to that account. E-mail me and I'll give you my IM handle so we can talk. Thanks so much for your support.

Anonymous said...

I've been reading your blog for sometime now and have never left a comment. It breaks my heart to know that your feeling this way, ur truly a wonderful person and deserve to be happy. I hope you get past this difficult time and feel better soon.
Im sending my love your way!!!

Anonymous said...

thinking of you hon... i am an early morning person... feel free to call me on the weekend during the day sometime.. if you want, i will send you my phone number through personal email...

carolyn in austin...

Anonymous said...

Geez, so sorry. I really want to call that guy some names. Funny, gross, crass names. What kind of man treats women that way? Ugh.

::hooooolding my tongue::

P.S. people always want to help, don't be afraid to ask.