Tuesday, May 31, 2005

5/31

I'm not sure how this can go on for 3-6 more weeks. Every night I have Braxton-Hicks contractions for an hour or so and then I get massive heart burn. This morning, I started having contractions on my way to work...with the funnest part of that being that I'm having "back labor". For those of you not familiar with this fun term, it basically means that with every contraction, a bloom of pain spreads through the lower back. I can literally feel it start at a central point and then radiate outward (imagine putting a drop of food coloring into a clear glass of water. That's a little of what it feels like).

Every says that I'm probably due any day now, but I'm getting sucked into the mindset of "I don't think I can do this for much longer." The "take one day at a time" mentality is being drowned out by the "I feel like I want to curl up in a ball and die" feeling.

Yes, I'm being dramatic. Yes, I will even say that I'm being ridiculous. Bite me. You go to work every day with a huge kid, have everyone that you run into, from casual acquaintances to perfect strangers tell you how big you are, deal with back pain every twenty minutes or so, and then tell me how you are feeling. I for one, want to go home.

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

From the way you describe the way you look I expected to see a double-wide trailer in your shower photos. I was pleasantly surprised to see a beautiful, glowing very pregnant woman (who is only big in all the right places--keeping Peanut safe).
B-Love, Siobhan and I read your blog a lot and we're really proud of you. You look great. By the way, my birthday is on the 17th, so I think that would be a great day for Peanut to pop on out. -Becca

Anonymous said...

Dear Bryana,
I've just had a chance for the first time in a little while to read The Best Blog in Cyberspace. I can't even believe the insight you offer us. Thank you for writing.
I spent last night with my sister-in-law who is expecting a boy around the same time as you. She said that she doesn't remember the last time she got a decent night's sleep. AND for the first time in my life, I truly paused to imagine how all the women in the world have slept over the millenia.. . ... Are you ever able ot sleep????
I have a difficult time not bumping into things when I'm exhausted-- never mind trying to eat well, work, and breathe through contractions....
I didn't know that contractions were so protective to babies until I read your blog. That's so amazing and painful at the same time! Yesterday, my brother was telling me about "Relaxum" that pumps through the body when you're ready to give birth-- making you superhumanly flexible. Also that pregant women have heightened senses. Is that true?
I miss you!
Love,
Rachel